As mentioned yesterday, M. Sakran has self-published a book of poems with explanations called Understanding: poems with explanations. It is currently available as an eBook for an available price of $0.99. Learn more about the book in yesterday’s post. Buy your copy today!
To help celebrate this self-publication, there is going to be, starting today, a post series of poems with explanations here on the blog. The series will consist of twenty posts (counting this one). Each post will have a poem with an explanation.
As a point of clarity, these poems with explanations are NOT the same ones as in Understanding: poems with explanations. These poems with explanations are different from the ones in the book.
Should anything of note happen during the series, it will be mentioned in a P.S. to a post. Also, generally, there should be a post in the series each weekday, until the series is done. If for some reason, there will be a weekday without a post, that will be mentioned in the post on the weekday before, at the latest.
Here is the first poem and explanation:
with that look,
and a moment,
with a glance,
a glance so regretted,
seen on the wall,
a speechless wonder,
and there standing,
wanting to run,
but social situation,
but something about,
not like a moment before,
and feeling it all,
what to do.
In this poem, a person is asked to house sit for some friends. The poem starts, with the person in the house, right after the friends have left. The person is going to be house sitting for three days. That is the underlying beginning premise of the poem. Within in this though, there is a poem about addiction.
The person in the poem is an alcoholic. They are sober, and have been for a few months. Their addiction was not on their mind when they agreed to house sit. The friends, did not know of the situation. The problem in the poem occurs, when as the person walks around the house, they see a wine bar, that they did not know was there. The person then experiences a struggle.
In the first stanza, the person is in the house right after the friends have left. They start by Walking around, and they have a certain stereotypical look of wonderment (with that look) as they take in the house, which is much better than the one they live in. As they are there, they think of all they might do during this three day, what feels like, vacation (and a moment, of possibilities).
As the person is having this positive moment, in the second stanza, something changes (and then). The person happens to move their eyes (with a glance), and in an instant, they regret it (a glance so regretted). The person happened to look (seen on the wall) and see wine bottles on the wall (the rows).
When this happens, as expressed in the third stanza, the person is overwhelmed (A flood, a feeling, a speechless wonder). In part, they have battled their addiction, and started to be sober, by avoiding alcohol. In that instant, they feel confined (and there standing) and they want to run away and get away from this (wanting to run, away). They are worried they will give in to their addiction.
In their mind, but not in their body, they almost move toward the front door to flee. This is stopped though by their mind. They feel they can’t leave. They feel an obligation to their friends (But obligation) and they wonder how it would look to tell them that they are an alcoholic (which their friends do not know) and that they cannot handle being in the house. They feel this would be socially awkward (but social situation). In addition to these feelings, they also have a sense that they should be able to face this situation. They feel like they should be able to resist the bottles on the wall (but something about, inner strength).
In the last stanza, the person sits down on a couch (sitting down), and there is a quick moment where they realize how everything has changed from just a moment before (not like a moment before). They feel very overwhelmed (and feeling it all) and they wonder what they are going to do (and wondering, what to do).
This poem is essentially about a person facing an unexpected temptation in an addiction. The poem is called Three days, because of the time in the house, but also because of the idea that that is how long the person will be facing this particular trial.
In terms of form, this poem is five stanzas long. Stanzas one and two were written as one sentence, as were stanzas four and five.
The poem was written as a free verse poem, with the two indentions (one in the second stanza and one in the fifth) meant to set those two moments apart.
Although the poem is free verse, there are some interesting, although some in some sense unintentional, form elements.
Stanza one, for example, has a word count per line of 2, 3, 3, 2. This seems like a pattern and is coincidently, the same word count pattern found in stanza four.
In the fourth stanza, there was the intentional form element of having the pairing of obligation and situation in lines one and two. There was an idea of repeating a sound. Additionally, the two but‘s in lines two and three also made a pairing.
As mentioned, the two indentions of stanzas two and five, were intentional and were meant to set those moments apart.